Bespren Ko Doon

“Sinong bespren mo doon?”

“Syempre ikaw lang!”

Haha! Remember this? This is why your name  in my phone has always been “bespren ko doon”.

Now, it’s been what? 7 years? 8? Can’t remember the last time we met. But the memories of our friendship will always be vividly remembered.

Yung pagsakal mo sa’kin pag nagpapasaway ako. And then I act like dying. Haha!

Yung pagbatok mo sa’kin pag nag-iinom ako. Batang lasenggera, plus ako ang tanggera.

Yung hatid at sundo pag gala mode tayo, plus pagpapaalam sa tatay kong istrikto.

Yung pagbili ng softdrinks o kaya ice tubig pag uhaw na uhaw na ko kakatili sa basketball court. Pero hindi naman ikaw ang chini-cheer ko :D

Yung pang-aaway mo sa’kin pag may sikreto akong hindi sinasabi sayo.

At yung pag-iyak ko sa bawat pang-aaway mo.

Oo, lahat yun tandang tanda ko. Kasama lahat ng regalo mo. Pero sa tagal ng panahon, wala ng naiwan ni isa man sakanila. Kasama na rin ng alaala mong unti-unti nang nabubura.

Sinadya kong limutin ka. Pinilit ko. Kung merong isang parte ng buhay ko na ginusto kong mabura, yun ay nung naging kaibigan kita. Ikaw naging kuya ko habang hindi ko ramdam ang pagiging kuya nila. Ikaw ang naging tatay ko habang hindi ko siya nakikita. Mula kinder hanggang high school, andyan ka. Pero bakit kailangang magbago? Oo alam kong hindi mo yun sinasadya. Pero wala rin akong magagawa, hanggang kaibigan lang talaga. Mahal kita. Bestfriend kita eh. At hanggang dun lang yun. Pasensya na talaga.

Ngayon, tanggap ko na. Tanggap ko na hanggang alaala na lang kita. Ikaw ang nag-iisang bespren ko doon. Dahil ngayon, meron na kong “bespren dito”. Dito. Dito sa kung saan ako ngayon. Dito. Dito sa puso ko. Haha.

October 7. Lagi kitang naaalala. Sana masaya ka. Sana okay ka na. Miss na kita. Pero hindi naman sobra. Yung sakto lang. Haha.

So pano, HAPPY BIRTHDAY nalang! Ingat ka. Kahit na alam kong hindi mo to mababasa. Sabagay, ipagdadasal nalang kita J

P.S.

Sinong bespren mo doon? J

A Dear Friend of a Dear Friend

Dear Friend,

I really thank you for your time. I mean it from the bottom of my heart. We’re not really friends but you make time for me. And so, I thank you J

As I’ve poured out my heart, and hear a part of yours too, I just feel released from a ‘burden’. Parang isang tinik na malalim na bumaon sa aking ngala-ngala. Oh man, it was so masakeeet.

And so now, my throat is free. Hariba to me :D

I hope you’re also free from any questions and other things that may distract you. Though, on the other hand, we both know that it will always be part of our lives. Just live on, LIFE IS EXCITING J

God bless you my friend. And once again, THANK YOU J

Love,

Your Friend

Emkei

Dear Friend,

One of the reasons why I [sometimes] hate writing is because I am ‘emo’. You know, yung maarte na laging malungkot na natatakpan ng bangs ang matang nababalot ng eye liner? Haha! Hindi naman ako ganun eh, but I know I [almost always] sound ‘emo’, intentionally or not.

But anyway, gusto ko lang naman magpasalamat.

There are things better left unsaid, at least verbally. Hehe. I always say thank you. But I guess those ‘thank yous’ aren’t grasped fully by your limited understanding of my complexity.

I thank you for breaking my heart. Thank you for making the rain fall heavy and make me awake. Stay awake for hours and so and make me feel stronger. Yeah boy. I’m alive and kicking! Let’s celebrate :D

Salamat kasi narealize kong tao pa rin pala ako. Kala ko kasi I’ve become one of the non-living things eh. Haha! My aorta, arteries, brain cells and pituitary gland are still functioning so well. Yun nga lang, medyo naging abnormal ang movements nila. And I guess one of the reasons is you. I think when you entered my life, there were some damages done. I guess you entered the wrong door eh. Hindi swak, medyo nasira tuloy yung pinto. Yun tuloy I had to contact the greatest Carpenter I know. Buti nalang kayang kaya Niyang gawin. Yun nga lang, medyo matagal tagal daw ang gawaan :D

But still, I thank you.

Mahaba haba pa ang paglalakbay. And I hope you will be with me until the end. But well, who knows, baka bukas makalawa, lumabas ka ulit ng pintuan. Bukas naman yun lagi eh. But I hope when you get out [just in case], wala ng masirang pintuan. Mahirap gawin eh. Matrabaho. Maraming vulcasil ang kailangan. Kaya kung lalabas ka man, pakibukas ng maayos ang pinto at pakisara din ng maayos. Para kung sakaling may pumasok ulit, alam nila ang tamang pintuang kakatukan. SALAMAT ng marami Munting Kaibigan J

Love,

Your Friend.

My BESTfriend

Dear Friend,

You made a promise, and I will always hold on to that.

“I will never leave you nor forsake you.”

Remember that? Of course I know You do. And I thank You. So much. Now, I’m going thru a lot of things and my mind is so occupied. Feeling ko nga magka-crash na siya anytime eh. But I am so thankful that at the end of the day, You’re there for me. You comfort me and You make me feel that I will never be alone. And I thank You for giving me substitute for You whenever I need a tangible one. Thank You for my friends down here whom You gave to give me true hugs that I won’t feel from You, though I know You always do. Thank You for the words of encouragement You give me through them. Thank You also for the painful rebukes, for the palo and batok that make me sit straight again and look straight ahead.

Thank You, for You and for them. As I continue to journey with You and the other YOUs, may I always be a good friend and a good companion J

Thank You. I love You.

Love,

Your friend